I want to focus on how I’m developing as a teacher. When I first came to Korea almost
six years ago at the tender man-child age of 25, I didn’t know the first thing
about teaching. I was good with kids and that was it. I have a B.A in English
Literature, but I’m not sure why that’s so prized here, as that major had
nothing to do with education or English proficiency (I think employers focus on
the “English” part and probably don’t fully understand what the “literature”
part entails, because I’m not dissecting Vonnegut novels in class). I had had
no formal training and didn’t know anything about ELT techniques (and I would
later find out to my chagrin, basic grammar).
My first year working at a hagwon (hakwon? I don’t have hangul on this
keyboard) was a breeze and nothing I took very seriously. Like most
long-termers I never expected my duration in Korea to last so long. I was
taking a job as an ESL teacher in Korea almost as a lark and a way to get out
of my house back home.
Not
to say I was indifferent or feckless during my first year, just woefully
inexperienced. I brought energy to the classroom and dialogic exchanges came naturally to me, even though at the time I
had no idea what those were. I was teaching kids from a textbook and not really
developing, except in my ability to control kids. The real shock came when I
was hired at a University for my second year. I want to first say I was
incredibly lucky and I’m kind of baffled as to why I was hired (in fact, the
first three or four months there I would consider myself a bad hire and I’ll
elaborate shortly). I only had my B.A,
one year experience at a hagwon and basically zero real teaching experience. I
can only speculate that I got the job when the job-market was less competitive
and the effects of the US recession and Eurozone hadn’t driven every
20-something (and some a lot more experienced than me) to Korea. My first shock
was when students started challenging me in class and I received a terrible
(and much deserved) poor first evaluation. I asked advice from my peers and started to study more about the components of English proficiency and
how to properly teach and/or utilize them in my classroom.
I also prepared more as a teacher, putting aside at least a couple hours each
morning so I wouldn’t be caught off-guard in the classroom. I considered
different angles to approach the subject-material and crafted my own
supplements. This was in contrast to my first month or so at the University
when I approached the classes with a hagwon mindset, doing exercises straight
from the book with little forethought and preparation outside the classroom and
not enough teacher-to-student
interaction, scaffolding or practical application activities inside the classroom. Furthermore I
had a bad habit of cutting off students with corrective feedback that would erode the student’s confidence,
willingness to self-express and enthusiasm.
Naturally,
as time progressed, I became more aware of what students responded to, both in
my personal interactions with the students (as I talked about in the blog
question about ‘authority vs solidarity’) and my academic instruction. By the
time I left my University after four years (a seriously misguided and hubristic
decision as I’ve lamented countless times) my student evaluation averages were
in the mid 90’s. However, I still acutely felt the deficits in my teaching;
whenever I had trouble delivering a point or was confronted with an EFL term I
was unfamiliar with, it would remind me that I still had no formal training in
teaching. I think this TESOL course is the greatest leap I’ve taken so far in
committing seriously to a future as an EFL teacher (or ESL teacher in the
states). As far as my limitations go,
being a visual or demonstrative learner as opposed to an auditory one, I absorb
techniques much more than I do the terms describing those techniques (which is
why I always fear the dreaded pop-quiz). Sometimes when I want to teach I dive
into trying to explain grammar that I know innately, but have trouble
verbalizing in a concise manner. This is one deficit I’d seriously like to
improve by studying more seriously, even if I can’t completely correct it. I
hope I continue to develop as a teacher and progress towards that forbidden,
unattainable “perfection” that Barcelos talks about in Chapter 5 of our
Johnston reading.